We Uncovered Something and It's BIG!

  • By Karen Nowak
  • 19 Feb, 2016

How uncomfortable can the less than stellar moments get between you and your horse?

Finding out what is underneath the layer of complacency in your horse is not for the faint of heart. What is stirred up isn’t pretty, but it is important. I can attest to that.   Quiet Annie tried to kick me.

Two thoughts came rapid fire within me after the incident was over. One stemmed from and old way of thinking, and passed through my mind quickly. “I had already ruined her.”

 After all, Chris, Brandy, and Butter would never threaten me like that. I fell into the trap of judgment, preventing myself from seeing clearly.

Annie is beautifully Annie. Not any of my other horses. I am learning to see her, not her predecessors.

I realized neither one of us is a victim, she to my ineptitude, I to her feelings.

 Yes my relationship with Annie is totally different than with Brandy, Butter, or Chris. Different time. Different place. Different horse. Different world. Different me.

 Now to my second thought that accurately fits the situation from my perspective.

  “I guess we uncovered something. And, it’s BIG

What Led Up To Annie Speaking Out  

I had begun to notice the early warning signs of Annie’s thoughts around feeding time. I had made excuses long enough that she respected me and it was Butternut and Brandy she was staking claim on her food from.

I began to question if her attitude extended to me.

Although the clear signs had been building until our “incident” I was unaware of how deeply her bad feelings ran.

Annie is now in an established herd of three. The pecking order is very clear. Brandy is head honcho, no surprise there.

Annie is second in command. With Butter holding the prestigious position of number three, or in this case the bottom.

This all ways contributing to the dynamics around feeding time. Brandy had long ago understood what was expected of her and did it. She had no one to squabble with about food she was top horse.

 Butter would wait her turn also, until Annie came along. With Annie in the mix Butter challenges Annie at feeding time.

And this is what went into the mix creating the dynamics for the statement Annie made in my direction.

The Un-layering

I have begun to ask more of Annie.  I am now asking tougher questions for her to answer.

How does it feel when I take you away from the other horses? How do you feel when I touch you? How do you feel when asked to do something?

A lot of questions yes. But the only way to find out how she feels is to look in the uncomfortable places. Ask things of her when she doesn’t want to be asked.

No unreasonable request was asked of her yesterday morning when I asked her to move to another pile of hay. This time she took exception to my request and quickly turned her hind end to me pinning me to the fence panel and began lifting her hind end.

Fortunately she was close and unable to do much harm if she had connected.

My life did not flash before my eyes. Thank God.

Instead, much to my surprise, I remained present thinking of my options as I moved faster than I knew I could to my right. All the while becoming very large in the roar of what I thought of her behavior.

I knew my next decision was an important one in how this was going to turn out.

I knew I would not move her from the hay pile without something to equalize our energies. She had already shown me she was willing to turn and kick.

In the span of 30 seconds, spurred by adrenalin, I made it into the barn and back out with a long crop with heavy plastic strips attached to the end. My “I mean it” noise making tool.

I was able to back up my request much louder this time. Startled Annie moved, fast.

I kept her from several piles of hay. She was ostracized out of the herd for her behavior. She knew it and waited a respectful distance.

I moved away letting go of my intention of guarding all the hay. Annie came down and ate, keeping an eye on me.

 I have watched Brandy often walk over to a pile of hay with Annie or Butter moving away. I followed her lead and simply walked over to the hay Annie was eating as I dragged my equalizer. She moved to another pile.

Have we solved whatever was bothering Annie yesterday? No. But we are headed in the right direction. We now know it’s there.

I know she doesn’t respect me, yet. She is kind and goes along with many request asked of her without a problem. This day, this request, was a big problem and the reason is important in the bigger scheme of our relationship.

I won’t deny the words Alpo and glue passed my lips when the incident was over before my shaking subsided.

I was actually proud of myself for staying present throughout the whole incident.

 We have moved on and Annie comes over asking for attention.

That is the beauty of a horse. For her the incident was over I am happy to say for me too. Annie is teaching me to let go of thoughts I cling to too, ones that keep alive what muddy the waters of our relationship.

More contributed to our altercation due to metaphysical work I had begun with Annie. But that is a whole blog in itself.

After the original posting a reader shared that it might involve Annie's hormones. I am looking into his insight. Annie was a brood mare and now she no longer is. Her body might need support in recalibrating or this might be a part of her. I am uncertain at this point. 
Brandy was and still is very hormonal but has never had a foal. She has cycled consistently her whole life. Butter has never had a foal either and is very hard to pinpoint when she is in heat. 
Different mares, each with unique cycles. What contributes to each is how nature made them. I will in the metaphysical work I do explore how this all plays out for Annie and if she might like and choose assistance in re-regulating her hormonal cycles. It's her choice. Just something to explore.
Thank you Benjamin for your observation.

Next Week:   Working Metaphysically With Annie

If you would like to know more about this type of work and see how it applies to your horse set up a FREE 15 Minute Consultation and find out.

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physical beings. Traditional medicine addresses physical symptoms. Alternative modalities encompass the mental and emotional aspects that present themselves in the body as imbalances, known as diseases.
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When I was asked that question I thought back to the death my horse, Chris, to find the answer.

Her death had left me emotionally devastated. I wasn’t aware of all she had been in my life. Without conditions. The hurt seemed stronger than losing humans I had been close to. It wasn’t until the loss of my parents, that I was able to experience the difference.

Only then could I understand it was judgments I made, and the perspective I took that kept me in emotional pain about the difference.

Chris and I had come together at a pivotal time of personal growth and change. No human knew how insecure I felt on the inside during that time of my life.

I matured in many ways on her back. She had my heart and supported me, as I matured into an adult with a federal job and a mortgage.

I became more confident in many areas of my life, from riding her. I trusted her with my heart and life. She knew me in ways no human could. When on her back our energy fields become one. I could never hide my feelings from her, she always knew what my heart didn’t always want my head to know. Chris knew things about me no human could see. She judged none of it.
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If you have ever had an animal that went missing,even for a few minutes, you have experienced the many emotions that take over.
Finding lost animals is wrought with fear, anxiety, panic and lack of control.

If the animal has escaped to go out on a jaunt it could include joy on their side not on yours. There are as many variables, emotions, and situations as there are animals.

We as the human know the inherent dangers of what could happen. They on the other hand, such as in the case of a Beagle, may be just following a scent. Something they were bred to do, unaware of the dangers that might surround them.
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Understanding their new life has come at their own pace. Life changed dramatically, the day they were surrendered to the shelter in St Maries ID. That day did not make them victims.
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Healing yourself, not blaming the outside world, clearing up your language of negativity in all thoughts, forgiving yourself, taking responsibility for what you have created, not judging what you have created, just to name a few are part of transformation to a higher vibration of self. These and many others are imperative to moving into the life you desire.

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Thousands of years ago, cats were worshipped as gods. Cats have never forgotten this.
— Anonymous

Owners of dogs have noticed that, if you provide a dog with food, water, shelter and affection, they will think you are god. Whereas owners of cats are compelled to realize that, if you provide a cat with food, water, shelter and affection, they draw the conclusion that they are gods.
―Christopher Hitchens, The Portable Atheist: Essential Readings for the Nonbeliever
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Portuguese Water Dog (PWD). What set her apart was that she was born with everything the breed didn’t want. She was improperly coated, had short legs, and a unique head. Some felt she was an embarrassment to the breed and should be euthanized. 

I was living in WoodstockValley, CT when I received the call from the PWD Rescue that they had a female they wanted to place that had “issues,” I didn’t let it deter me. My other PWD had personality to spare and wefelt he would like a companion,as our other dog was very old.
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Statements such as “Universe, I don’t want to live in lack. I don’t want be alone, anymore. I am tired of being sick; I don’t want to feel this way anymore” hold implied meaning of what you believe to be true. There is no room for more than one meaning. Your belief, and the feeling attached to it, will always trump, win, and create your reality.
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" Oh, I feel so stuck"
I am so stuck"
I'm stuck and I can't seem to move out of being stuck"

And a million other variations on STUCK, IMMOVABLE energy.
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By Karen Nowak 13 Feb, 2017
 Answering this question honestly, and changing yourapproach if necessary, contributes to you building a well-rounded health-care plan for your animal. Waiting until an illness or disease arises places you in a position of reacting, and not in the optimum mind-set to make informed decisions based on research. Creating a holistic approach involves incorporating the concept that both you and your animal are more than just
physical beings. Traditional medicine addresses physical symptoms. Alternative modalities encompass the mental and emotional aspects that present themselves in the body as imbalances, known as diseases.
By Karen Nowak 17 Oct, 2016
I am often asked the question “Why does losing my cat (dog, horse etc) hurt worse than losing humans in my life? I feel guilty because it hurts more.”

When I was asked that question I thought back to the death my horse, Chris, to find the answer.

Her death had left me emotionally devastated. I wasn’t aware of all she had been in my life. Without conditions. The hurt seemed stronger than losing humans I had been close to. It wasn’t until the loss of my parents, that I was able to experience the difference.

Only then could I understand it was judgments I made, and the perspective I took that kept me in emotional pain about the difference.

Chris and I had come together at a pivotal time of personal growth and change. No human knew how insecure I felt on the inside during that time of my life.

I matured in many ways on her back. She had my heart and supported me, as I matured into an adult with a federal job and a mortgage.

I became more confident in many areas of my life, from riding her. I trusted her with my heart and life. She knew me in ways no human could. When on her back our energy fields become one. I could never hide my feelings from her, she always knew what my heart didn’t always want my head to know. Chris knew things about me no human could see. She judged none of it.
By Karen Nowak 17 Oct, 2016
If you have ever had an animal that went missing,even for a few minutes, you have experienced the many emotions that take over.
Finding lost animals is wrought with fear, anxiety, panic and lack of control.

If the animal has escaped to go out on a jaunt it could include joy on their side not on yours. There are as many variables, emotions, and situations as there are animals.

We as the human know the inherent dangers of what could happen. They on the other hand, such as in the case of a Beagle, may be just following a scent. Something they were bred to do, unaware of the dangers that might surround them.
By Karen Nowak 25 Jul, 2016
Rocky and Mia,  brother and sister Puggles, have been at Freedom Reins for about a month now.

Understanding their new life has come at their own pace. Life changed dramatically, the day they were surrendered to the shelter in St Maries ID. That day did not make them victims.
By Karen Nowak 21 Jul, 2016
You may be saying I have read this all before. Yes you have. How much did you commit to when you did? Universal law doesn't let you pick which laws you use and which you ignore to get the life you long for. Okay I am willing to do this, but not that, no,no I don't want to give up that. Just a little bit of it won't affect the outcome. Universal law and clear and we can't pick only what we like as if we are ordering pizza toppings.

Healing yourself, not blaming the outside world, clearing up your language of negativity in all thoughts, forgiving yourself, taking responsibility for what you have created, not judging what you have created, just to name a few are part of transformation to a higher vibration of self. These and many others are imperative to moving into the life you desire.

Healing and balancing your mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical bodies is also crucial at this time of unprecedented change.
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Thousands of years ago, cats were worshipped as gods. Cats have never forgotten this.
— Anonymous

Owners of dogs have noticed that, if you provide a dog with food, water, shelter and affection, they will think you are god. Whereas owners of cats are compelled to realize that, if you provide a cat with food, water, shelter and affection, they draw the conclusion that they are gods.
―Christopher Hitchens, The Portable Atheist: Essential Readings for the Nonbeliever
By Karen Nowak 20 May, 2016

Some will say this is a faery tale, but being about a very real feline, who shall we say does not embody the demure attributes of a faery, It, is simply, a Tale of a Tail.

Charlie, the main feline of this tail, lived with my aunt for many years. Coming in a long line of very large yellow cats my aunt had in her life, all named Charlie, he was of indeterminate age in the records. The Charlie this tale is about was the last my aunt would have on this earth. . My matante and Charlie lived together for many years, always sharing their daily meals. My aunt holding the food in her hand, and Charlie obligingly eating it. They shared an interesting diet. what my Aunt ate, Charlie ate. The selection was large and varied, donuts to water chestnuts, could be found on the menu. Their favorite delectable delight, unanimously voted upon, was most assuredly pepperoni. Hardly a balanced diet for a cat. But both were full and happy, Charlie not being your normal cat. After all, this feline, ALWAYS got what he wanted. Charles Persistent T Cat being his full name.

By Karen Nowak 20 Apr, 2016
These were the words of wisdom that my dog Moxie, originally known as Noni, spoke to me well into our relationship. Moxie was a
Portuguese Water Dog (PWD). What set her apart was that she was born with everything the breed didn’t want. She was improperly coated, had short legs, and a unique head. Some felt she was an embarrassment to the breed and should be euthanized. 

I was living in WoodstockValley, CT when I received the call from the PWD Rescue that they had a female they wanted to place that had “issues,” I didn’t let it deter me. My other PWD had personality to spare and wefelt he would like a companion,as our other dog was very old.
By Karen Nowak 05 Apr, 2016
What language do you use with yourself throughout your life? Is it one based in uncertainty and imperfection? Or, ever growing trust in self?

Wanting and Choosing are Two Different Things
Universal energy does not see wanting something as choosing something. It responds to “wanting” by remaining in a state of wanting.

Implied Additional Meaning
Filling your request with negative connotations will not get you what you desire.

Statements such as “Universe, I don’t want to live in lack. I don’t want be alone, anymore. I am tired of being sick; I don’t want to feel this way anymore” hold implied meaning of what you believe to be true. There is no room for more than one meaning. Your belief, and the feeling attached to it, will always trump, win, and create your reality.
By Karen Nowak 08 Mar, 2016
Do you find yourself saying any of these things or variations thereof when you feel stuck? Often not even knowing the reason.

" Oh, I feel so stuck"
I am so stuck"
I'm stuck and I can't seem to move out of being stuck"

And a million other variations on STUCK, IMMOVABLE energy.
More Posts
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